That dream was scary...

I have never had a dream like that before in my life...
We were gathered around the Thanksgiving table and I remember we were at the house in MN. All of the kids were there and we were getting ready to bow our heads and say grace. I hear us saying grace and then I hear Steve say Mom's name and I just hunch over and let out the most guttural scream and wail I have ever given. I have never experienced something like that before in my life. I woke myself up from that wail and was so shaken that I could not get back to sleep.

I dread the holidays...the absence will be palpable...